Kelly & Cal

Heyy, what's up?


So umm I was just finished watching a movie and it touched me to the part that I can't express them within my usual 140 characters as I always do. The movie was entitled, Kelly & Cal where the story goes around this frustrating woman, Kelly who can't figure out how to handle her newly born baby and a teenage boy, Cal who just recently got dumped by his girlfriend after involved in an accident that put him on a wheelchair.

The story develops where they both in the same neighbourhood and they get close till unintentionally got caught up with feelings to each other. Things getting complicated as the story goes but somehow at the end she and her understanding husband figure things out and eventually they managed to pull things through. So it was a happy ending but mom and I ended up with teary eyes anyway. Maybe because her husband showed that much loves, it reached us. Spontaneously I grab my phone and text someone. Hahaha

Well, it is the 12th day of the fasting month now. I'm still at home working with my mom but a week after eid, I will be gone to having my own life and once again try to pull myself together. I think this would be the last time I would enjoy having mom with me while I'm still single. Hahaha kidding.

Oh by the way, I haven't mentioned about my niece yet! I just can't stand her cuteness and her adorable face. She's a year and almost 5 months now, about as long as we know each other.. I missed you.

Love, Ad.

Forgetting.

Assalamualaikum.

Goodness, it's been 2 years since my last post. Guess I'm just forgetting that I used to write a blog. HAHA. Well, life happens and it seems unbelievable that I'm gonna turned 26 this year. I've seen my peers and junior getting married and being parents all these years and here I am still trying to get a hold of myself. LOL FML

I'm back to my hometown now since earlier this month, getting a work here at my mom's office. If not, it would be a whole year since I started working with Fuji Xerox last April. It was a very memorable moment, challenging and experienced environment. I received a lot of love and hate while working there. While my other peers are happily working in our field, I still can't my place anywhere in the field. I'm guessing I'm not gonna get any since it's been almost 3 years since my graduation. My job now is kinda dull and bored but it's just a perspective. I can find a good out of it if I try to challenge myself.

Enough talk about my work.

About my love life? Heck.

Well, I've break my own record and it's an achievement unlocked because I've been together with this one for a complete year and a month now. But the thing is, I felt like it's starting to break apart now and just waiting to be ended but I'm still trying to fight for it and hanging on to this thread. It's just sad that I've been such a heart breaker. Anyhow, the time will come sooner or later even if I'm gonna be 40 by that time. HAHA.

In the mean time, stay strong and face life with courage and faith.

Love,

Yours truly.

Stalker.

Nazri is stalking my blog.

And I'm writing this entry using his brand new Samsung Note 8.0

Woohoo! ;)

When I'm Down.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

So, this entry is gonna be very honest and heart breaking. Miserable yet trying to uplift my motovation. I meant that it's more to luahan hati sendiri based on what I've been through as in right now. I'm restless, tired, having a heartache, but in the same time head over heels with my bf. Eh. Let's just save that for another day.

Well, I've just had a conversation with my soulmate bff whom I love and cherish her very much. She really understands me well enough that I felt like she's so close with me as like a family member. I always tell her everything, in good and bad times whichever which I'm facing and same goes to her.

This is about me and my journey of study. Just now she said to me,

I understands, I know that it's not on your own willingness to further your study. You did it bcoz your mom ask you to, I know. You can't fully give your heart on it. But whatever it is, just think that this is the best for you. And it hits me that, yeah this is the path I choose. I don't have to look back and think of the road not taken. I just need to move on, move forward, face this. I need to face my responsibilities, it is like amanah. From my mom. I need to remind myself of this whenever I'm feeling down or felt like quiting this whole thing. It is really hard you know, when you don't have you heart to do something, tak ikhlas namanya. That, is another chapter.

I remember some phrase, be said that: Allah takkan mengubah nasib sesuatu bangsa/seseorang itu melainkan that bangsa/sesorang itu yang mengubah nya sendiri.
So I need to change, cause it's all depend on me right now.


See you in another day, in shaa Allah.

Blur.

Haip!

Happy Labour Day!

So. Umm. There's this one post in my draft waited to be posted for so long. It doesn't finished yet, so I'm gonna try to wrap it up by today. Didn't write quite a while I guess. Oh well, 2 months without a single post! Dah tak nice blog archive aku, tapi takpe. Hahaha.

Anyhow, happy holiday! *Hari bermalasan dan basuh kain sedunia.

Peace and out.

Assalamualaikum.

Abruptly.

Oh well, this is unexpected.

New phase change of life, AGAIN.

After 3 and a half months of working phase.

Looks like I'm gonna get back to my university era. Yeyy! (bersorak dalam tekak je)

It's killing me inside. Feels like everyone laughing at me.

It's true what people said. Bila dah pegang duit, dah kerja. Memang liat gila nak belajar balik.

Yet I'll go with the flow. InsyaAllah ada hikmah nya.

I'll do this for Allah and for you, mom.

Hope everything's gonna be alright.

Please, keep my heart strong.

I miss him.

Broken Heart.

Suddenly felt like I'm falling in love again, but it's an impossible love.

Source: pakcik Google images.

Twenty Thirteen.

'Sup!

Assalamualaikum :)

Just a late wish, happy 2013. Well, maybe I'm too drown with workload and stress. Sejak masuk kerja shift ni, hidup tak terurus. Hmm. And hey, guess what? I've been working in that company for 3 months now. WOW! Congrats to myself! Berjaya bertahan. Alhamdulillah. You go girl~ Tapi jauh di sudut hati, aku harap dapat kerja lain yang lebih sesuai dengan aku. Mungkin ada hikmah nya, mungkin aku tak sesuai bekerja for position kelayakan aku ni, still a long way journey awaits and I can't wait to explore the world if I have the chance. Memang aku masih mentah dengan realiti dunia luar sana, tapi aku harap semua benda berjalan ke arah yang benar. Hohoho. So, 3 months jugak laa aku kenal colleagues kat situ and I do enjoy their company, syok bila kita berkawan macam dah lama kenal even baru kenal 3 bulan. Hee :')

Actually, aku dapat offer sambung buat master kat UiTM tercinta nun jauh di Shah Alam sana. Sambung master course degree aku dulu lah. Aku rasa ni offer untuk coursework punya whereby you have to take classes and done your research project on the same time. Mula-mula agak excited sebab aku memang rindu gila-gila punya nak belajar balik, apatah lagi sambung kat where I used to study before. EXCITEMENT! Then, aku fikir balik. Mampu ke aku? Dulu masa aku nak habiskan degree pun dah macam zombie kampung Shah Alam, ada hati nak sambung master eh. Memang, macam-macam pendapat aku dengar. Master tak macam degree, senang sikit laa tapi ada jugak yang cakap lagi susah. Itu aku taktau la sebab not yet get through it kan. Lots of consideration I put in my thoughts, mostly I think about money. Nak sambung belajar ni pakai duit ye akak abang, lain la kalau ada sponsor kan, but I'm not that flying colors punya student. Fufufufu~ Then, sekarang aku dah tambah commitment kewangan aku, so kalau boleh aku nak berdikari. Tanak menyusahkan my parents, nak kena diorang tanggung aku lagi sedangkan aku dah cukup dewasa untuk tanggung diri sendiri. Yang sebaya dengan aku pun ada yang dah berkahwin, ada anak semua, berkeluarga sendiri. Sampai bila aku nak duk bawah ketiak parents aku kan?

Mungkin aku kena istikharah dulu. Semalam masa dapat berita pasal ni, memang hati aku berat ke arah nak sambung belajar. But today, aku rasa nak kumpul harta dulu, do everything I can for my parents while I'm still single with no relationship commitment. Then insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki dapat sambung belajar, aku akan teruskan even buat part time. If I want it, I will try and work hard on it. Mau seribu daya, tak mau seribu dalih. Kan?

A penny for a thought. I wonder if I can finish up just 1 book a year. Hah! Good luck ;)

Honeymoon is Over!

So, hari-hari terakhir ku sebagai penganggur bermula sejurus selepas aku ditawarkan bekerja on last 28th. Well, I can say that it all start after I've been interviewed the week before too, I suppose. Hahaha.