Forgetting.

Assalamualaikum.

Goodness, it's been 2 years since my last post. Guess I'm just forgetting that I used to write a blog. HAHA. Well, life happens and it seems unbelievable that I'm gonna turned 26 this year. I've seen my peers and junior getting married and being parents all these years and here I am still trying to get a hold of myself. LOL FML

I'm back to my hometown now since earlier this month, getting a work here at my mom's office. If not, it would be a whole year since I started working with Fuji Xerox last April. It was a very memorable moment, challenging and experienced environment. I received a lot of love and hate while working there. While my other peers are happily working in our field, I still can't my place anywhere in the field. I'm guessing I'm not gonna get any since it's been almost 3 years since my graduation. My job now is kinda dull and bored but it's just a perspective. I can find a good out of it if I try to challenge myself.

Enough talk about my work.

About my love life? Heck.

Well, I've break my own record and it's an achievement unlocked because I've been together with this one for a complete year and a month now. But the thing is, I felt like it's starting to break apart now and just waiting to be ended but I'm still trying to fight for it and hanging on to this thread. It's just sad that I've been such a heart breaker. Anyhow, the time will come sooner or later even if I'm gonna be 40 by that time. HAHA.

In the mean time, stay strong and face life with courage and faith.

Love,

Yours truly.

Stalker.

Nazri is stalking my blog.

And I'm writing this entry using his brand new Samsung Note 8.0

Woohoo! ;)

When I'm Down.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

So, this entry is gonna be very honest and heart breaking. Miserable yet trying to uplift my motovation. I meant that it's more to luahan hati sendiri based on what I've been through as in right now. I'm restless, tired, having a heartache, but in the same time head over heels with my bf. Eh. Let's just save that for another day.

Well, I've just had a conversation with my soulmate bff whom I love and cherish her very much. She really understands me well enough that I felt like she's so close with me as like a family member. I always tell her everything, in good and bad times whichever which I'm facing and same goes to her.

This is about me and my journey of study. Just now she said to me,

I understands, I know that it's not on your own willingness to further your study. You did it bcoz your mom ask you to, I know. You can't fully give your heart on it. But whatever it is, just think that this is the best for you. And it hits me that, yeah this is the path I choose. I don't have to look back and think of the road not taken. I just need to move on, move forward, face this. I need to face my responsibilities, it is like amanah. From my mom. I need to remind myself of this whenever I'm feeling down or felt like quiting this whole thing. It is really hard you know, when you don't have you heart to do something, tak ikhlas namanya. That, is another chapter.

I remember some phrase, be said that: Allah takkan mengubah nasib sesuatu bangsa/seseorang itu melainkan that bangsa/sesorang itu yang mengubah nya sendiri.
So I need to change, cause it's all depend on me right now.


See you in another day, in shaa Allah.

Blur.

Haip!

Happy Labour Day!

So. Umm. There's this one post in my draft waited to be posted for so long. It doesn't finished yet, so I'm gonna try to wrap it up by today. Didn't write quite a while I guess. Oh well, 2 months without a single post! Dah tak nice blog archive aku, tapi takpe. Hahaha.

Anyhow, happy holiday! *Hari bermalasan dan basuh kain sedunia.

Peace and out.

Assalamualaikum.

Abruptly.

Oh well, this is unexpected.

New phase change of life, AGAIN.

After 3 and a half months of working phase.

Looks like I'm gonna get back to my university era. Yeyy! (bersorak dalam tekak je)

It's killing me inside. Feels like everyone laughing at me.

It's true what people said. Bila dah pegang duit, dah kerja. Memang liat gila nak belajar balik.

Yet I'll go with the flow. InsyaAllah ada hikmah nya.

I'll do this for Allah and for you, mom.

Hope everything's gonna be alright.

Please, keep my heart strong.

I miss him.

Broken Heart.

Suddenly felt like I'm falling in love again, but it's an impossible love.

Source: pakcik Google images.

Twenty Thirteen.

'Sup!

Assalamualaikum :)

Just a late wish, happy 2013. Well, maybe I'm too drown with workload and stress. Sejak masuk kerja shift ni, hidup tak terurus. Hmm. And hey, guess what? I've been working in that company for 3 months now. WOW! Congrats to myself! Berjaya bertahan. Alhamdulillah. You go girl~ Tapi jauh di sudut hati, aku harap dapat kerja lain yang lebih sesuai dengan aku. Mungkin ada hikmah nya, mungkin aku tak sesuai bekerja for position kelayakan aku ni, still a long way journey awaits and I can't wait to explore the world if I have the chance. Memang aku masih mentah dengan realiti dunia luar sana, tapi aku harap semua benda berjalan ke arah yang benar. Hohoho. So, 3 months jugak laa aku kenal colleagues kat situ and I do enjoy their company, syok bila kita berkawan macam dah lama kenal even baru kenal 3 bulan. Hee :')

Actually, aku dapat offer sambung buat master kat UiTM tercinta nun jauh di Shah Alam sana. Sambung master course degree aku dulu lah. Aku rasa ni offer untuk coursework punya whereby you have to take classes and done your research project on the same time. Mula-mula agak excited sebab aku memang rindu gila-gila punya nak belajar balik, apatah lagi sambung kat where I used to study before. EXCITEMENT! Then, aku fikir balik. Mampu ke aku? Dulu masa aku nak habiskan degree pun dah macam zombie kampung Shah Alam, ada hati nak sambung master eh. Memang, macam-macam pendapat aku dengar. Master tak macam degree, senang sikit laa tapi ada jugak yang cakap lagi susah. Itu aku taktau la sebab not yet get through it kan. Lots of consideration I put in my thoughts, mostly I think about money. Nak sambung belajar ni pakai duit ye akak abang, lain la kalau ada sponsor kan, but I'm not that flying colors punya student. Fufufufu~ Then, sekarang aku dah tambah commitment kewangan aku, so kalau boleh aku nak berdikari. Tanak menyusahkan my parents, nak kena diorang tanggung aku lagi sedangkan aku dah cukup dewasa untuk tanggung diri sendiri. Yang sebaya dengan aku pun ada yang dah berkahwin, ada anak semua, berkeluarga sendiri. Sampai bila aku nak duk bawah ketiak parents aku kan?

Mungkin aku kena istikharah dulu. Semalam masa dapat berita pasal ni, memang hati aku berat ke arah nak sambung belajar. But today, aku rasa nak kumpul harta dulu, do everything I can for my parents while I'm still single with no relationship commitment. Then insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki dapat sambung belajar, aku akan teruskan even buat part time. If I want it, I will try and work hard on it. Mau seribu daya, tak mau seribu dalih. Kan?

A penny for a thought. I wonder if I can finish up just 1 book a year. Hah! Good luck ;)

Honeymoon is Over!

So, hari-hari terakhir ku sebagai penganggur bermula sejurus selepas aku ditawarkan bekerja on last 28th. Well, I can say that it all start after I've been interviewed the week before too, I suppose. Hahaha.

New Chapter!

Assalamualaikum!

Haa, I've told you on my last entry that I would be interviewed on last Thursday right? Ahem. That was more than a week ago. Hahaha! Anyhow, last Thursday was like the longest job interview I've ever been through! Also the first one since I've had finished my study. Alkisahnya, I'd arrived at the company at about 1.40pm which took me by surprised of how huge that company is (quit big, but not that huge), then got out at 5.45pm! Accurately timed 'cause of the record book at the post guard of course, it's not like I'm gonna timed myself in there or whatsoever. Hahaha! The scheduled session was supposedly to start on 2.30pm but due to short of time, somehow just managed nak cari location company tu tengah hari tu jugak and ended up arrived there earlier. Fortunately being a musafir me on that time, dapat laa aku jamak solat zohor dan asar that day. Kalau tak, haruuuu jugak laa kan.

There were three sessions allocated, which were to include written test (maybe just like a survey or something) with almost 10 pages and the time given was an hour! You can just imagine how annoyingly tired to just repetitively circled the answer sheet when I just can tick them to save time! Duh. They should have told us sooner. Then, there's the first and second interview session, which I don't know why? Maybe the first one was with the HR department and the second was with the head of that position or whatnot. Huhuhu.

Lemme just sort out the familiar interview questions which y'all knew them already.

• Tell me about yourself
• What do you know about our company?
• Why did you choose to work with us?
• What are your greatest strength and weakness?
• Why did you choose this position instead of an engineer position? (As the position that I was applying is not engineering-related, obviously this question came out)
• Lastly at the end of the session, is there any other questions?

Basically these were most of the questions that I remembered, and almost the same questions were being asked for both session, which then again makes me puzzled. Ok, fine. Bhahaha! As I'm sucks with interview, I've noticed that it is INDEED a must to prepare for these kind of questions before going on to any job interview, right? Yet again, I'm not fully prepared that day, sempat google lagi questions frequently asked in interview siap hafal jawapan bagai but only ended up with one word of point and forget how the elaboration goes which lead to just being me confidently blabbering about things I don't remember what. Hahaha! The most interesting thing that happened was when I overheard some Japanese staff speaking with each other. I don't know much 'cause I'm not that good in that language, just got a grab on some of the words but then again it excites me. EXCITEMENT! 

Oh, and got to meet new peeps! You know how much I love that. Hehehe. There was 5 candidates being interviewed for that position, including me and 2 candidates for other positions. I've gained much and asked a lot while having some chat with them, since one of the candidates of that other position was already in working environment while the rest 5 of us were just mere fresh graduates. Hohoho. Out of the 5 candidates, one is a friend of an acquaintance of mine, well my course-mate to be exact! Hahaha. Hilarious.

Okay then, the BIG news is that the company called me yesterday noon and I got offered for that job! Alhamdulillah, rezeki Allah di awal bulan October ni. First job interview humbly grab it even if it's not an engineer position. So, it's gonna be a brand new chapter in my life, definitely a much different one in the middle of this month. Still waiting for the official offer letter right now. Don't ask me about the salary offered but yeah what's there to expect as I'm just a fresh graduate whom not yet graduated. Huhuhu. Pointing out about graduate, the graduation ceremony date is confirmed! It's gonna be on 6/12/12. Nice date huh. Hihihi. Doakan yang terbaik buat diri ini.

Jaa, matta ne! =)