Abruptly.

Oh well, this is unexpected.

New phase change of life, AGAIN.

After 3 and a half months of working phase.

Looks like I'm gonna get back to my university era. Yeyy! (bersorak dalam tekak je)

It's killing me inside. Feels like everyone laughing at me.

It's true what people said. Bila dah pegang duit, dah kerja. Memang liat gila nak belajar balik.

Yet I'll go with the flow. InsyaAllah ada hikmah nya.

I'll do this for Allah and for you, mom.

Hope everything's gonna be alright.

Please, keep my heart strong.

I miss him.

Broken Heart.

Suddenly felt like I'm falling in love again, but it's an impossible love.

Source: pakcik Google images.

Twenty Thirteen.

'Sup!

Assalamualaikum :)

Just a late wish, happy 2013. Well, maybe I'm too drown with workload and stress. Sejak masuk kerja shift ni, hidup tak terurus. Hmm. And hey, guess what? I've been working in that company for 3 months now. WOW! Congrats to myself! Berjaya bertahan. Alhamdulillah. You go girl~ Tapi jauh di sudut hati, aku harap dapat kerja lain yang lebih sesuai dengan aku. Mungkin ada hikmah nya, mungkin aku tak sesuai bekerja for position kelayakan aku ni, still a long way journey awaits and I can't wait to explore the world if I have the chance. Memang aku masih mentah dengan realiti dunia luar sana, tapi aku harap semua benda berjalan ke arah yang benar. Hohoho. So, 3 months jugak laa aku kenal colleagues kat situ and I do enjoy their company, syok bila kita berkawan macam dah lama kenal even baru kenal 3 bulan. Hee :')

Actually, aku dapat offer sambung buat master kat UiTM tercinta nun jauh di Shah Alam sana. Sambung master course degree aku dulu lah. Aku rasa ni offer untuk coursework punya whereby you have to take classes and done your research project on the same time. Mula-mula agak excited sebab aku memang rindu gila-gila punya nak belajar balik, apatah lagi sambung kat where I used to study before. EXCITEMENT! Then, aku fikir balik. Mampu ke aku? Dulu masa aku nak habiskan degree pun dah macam zombie kampung Shah Alam, ada hati nak sambung master eh. Memang, macam-macam pendapat aku dengar. Master tak macam degree, senang sikit laa tapi ada jugak yang cakap lagi susah. Itu aku taktau la sebab not yet get through it kan. Lots of consideration I put in my thoughts, mostly I think about money. Nak sambung belajar ni pakai duit ye akak abang, lain la kalau ada sponsor kan, but I'm not that flying colors punya student. Fufufufu~ Then, sekarang aku dah tambah commitment kewangan aku, so kalau boleh aku nak berdikari. Tanak menyusahkan my parents, nak kena diorang tanggung aku lagi sedangkan aku dah cukup dewasa untuk tanggung diri sendiri. Yang sebaya dengan aku pun ada yang dah berkahwin, ada anak semua, berkeluarga sendiri. Sampai bila aku nak duk bawah ketiak parents aku kan?

Mungkin aku kena istikharah dulu. Semalam masa dapat berita pasal ni, memang hati aku berat ke arah nak sambung belajar. But today, aku rasa nak kumpul harta dulu, do everything I can for my parents while I'm still single with no relationship commitment. Then insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki dapat sambung belajar, aku akan teruskan even buat part time. If I want it, I will try and work hard on it. Mau seribu daya, tak mau seribu dalih. Kan?

A penny for a thought. I wonder if I can finish up just 1 book a year. Hah! Good luck ;)

Honeymoon is Over!

So, hari-hari terakhir ku sebagai penganggur bermula sejurus selepas aku ditawarkan bekerja on last 28th. Well, I can say that it all start after I've been interviewed the week before too, I suppose. Hahaha.

New Chapter!

Assalamualaikum!

Haa, I've told you on my last entry that I would be interviewed on last Thursday right? Ahem. That was more than a week ago. Hahaha! Anyhow, last Thursday was like the longest job interview I've ever been through! Also the first one since I've had finished my study. Alkisahnya, I'd arrived at the company at about 1.40pm which took me by surprised of how huge that company is (quit big, but not that huge), then got out at 5.45pm! Accurately timed 'cause of the record book at the post guard of course, it's not like I'm gonna timed myself in there or whatsoever. Hahaha! The scheduled session was supposedly to start on 2.30pm but due to short of time, somehow just managed nak cari location company tu tengah hari tu jugak and ended up arrived there earlier. Fortunately being a musafir me on that time, dapat laa aku jamak solat zohor dan asar that day. Kalau tak, haruuuu jugak laa kan.

There were three sessions allocated, which were to include written test (maybe just like a survey or something) with almost 10 pages and the time given was an hour! You can just imagine how annoyingly tired to just repetitively circled the answer sheet when I just can tick them to save time! Duh. They should have told us sooner. Then, there's the first and second interview session, which I don't know why? Maybe the first one was with the HR department and the second was with the head of that position or whatnot. Huhuhu.

Lemme just sort out the familiar interview questions which y'all knew them already.

• Tell me about yourself
• What do you know about our company?
• Why did you choose to work with us?
• What are your greatest strength and weakness?
• Why did you choose this position instead of an engineer position? (As the position that I was applying is not engineering-related, obviously this question came out)
• Lastly at the end of the session, is there any other questions?

Basically these were most of the questions that I remembered, and almost the same questions were being asked for both session, which then again makes me puzzled. Ok, fine. Bhahaha! As I'm sucks with interview, I've noticed that it is INDEED a must to prepare for these kind of questions before going on to any job interview, right? Yet again, I'm not fully prepared that day, sempat google lagi questions frequently asked in interview siap hafal jawapan bagai but only ended up with one word of point and forget how the elaboration goes which lead to just being me confidently blabbering about things I don't remember what. Hahaha! The most interesting thing that happened was when I overheard some Japanese staff speaking with each other. I don't know much 'cause I'm not that good in that language, just got a grab on some of the words but then again it excites me. EXCITEMENT! 

Oh, and got to meet new peeps! You know how much I love that. Hehehe. There was 5 candidates being interviewed for that position, including me and 2 candidates for other positions. I've gained much and asked a lot while having some chat with them, since one of the candidates of that other position was already in working environment while the rest 5 of us were just mere fresh graduates. Hohoho. Out of the 5 candidates, one is a friend of an acquaintance of mine, well my course-mate to be exact! Hahaha. Hilarious.

Okay then, the BIG news is that the company called me yesterday noon and I got offered for that job! Alhamdulillah, rezeki Allah di awal bulan October ni. First job interview humbly grab it even if it's not an engineer position. So, it's gonna be a brand new chapter in my life, definitely a much different one in the middle of this month. Still waiting for the official offer letter right now. Don't ask me about the salary offered but yeah what's there to expect as I'm just a fresh graduate whom not yet graduated. Huhuhu. Pointing out about graduate, the graduation ceremony date is confirmed! It's gonna be on 6/12/12. Nice date huh. Hihihi. Doakan yang terbaik buat diri ini.

Jaa, matta ne! =)

Failure.

Assalamualaikum!

So, today's topic as ze above. FAILURE. I'm gonna share most of my failure experiences throughout my life and how I'd get through 'em. Did I? Maybe not. Ahah! *loser.

Well, ze failure that I'm talking 'bout were mostly related to my education. So, these were the flow of my school life throughout the year.

1. Pindah sekolah quite a few times, for unknown reasons. Darjah 1 - somewhere in Selayang. Darjah 2 - SKLG, Darjah 3 sampai 6 - SKDH1. Form 1 till 3 - SMKPC1, Form 4 & 5 - SMK Puteri.
2. Got biasa-biasa je result in UPSR, not that bad. Just that, not that satisfying.
3. Same with PMR.
4. Flying colors result in SPM though. Expect the unexpected XD

As I've finished my school time, as expected I'd proceed to a higher education. Then, between those time I realized that I'm an interview loser. All that I've been interviewed, satu pun tak sangkut.

1. Apply for overseas scholar, didn't know why I choses medicine. Went through all those test, join the program went to the hospital for long as I remember 3 to 4 days, and interview. Fortunate that I didn't got that, sangat tak sesuai~ Hahaha!
2. Apply for UTP, actually went there and again did all those whatever stages needed to get through but then, unexpectedly enrolled with the same candidate with me then.
3. Akhir nya, went to my beloved University. Then came the time for my industrial training, went to KLCC but then didn't get the place too. Ended up doing it in my hometown. Humph.
4. Result jatuh abruptly on semester 3 and been very down, sengsara throughout the very 3 years but somehow managed. Alhamdulillah, and convocation's gonna be on November! Can't wait!

Note, the whole purpose was just to reminiscence all about the school that I'd missed a lot and not that I have any regret or anything. I'm very thankful for all of these. Things don't just happened without a reason, setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah nya kan. Pasti. InsyaAllah. Oh, and I'm gonna have my first job interview this Thursday! Well, if the job is for me, and suits me, then everything's gonna be alright. I believe that. Doakan yang terbaik buat diri ini. Aamiin. 

Penanam Anggur = Penganggur

Hello there! Assalamualaikum :)

Aduhai. Sebulan dapat 1 entry je. Boleh pulak aku lupa pasal blog ni. Dah lama sangat tinggal bersepah, bersawang. Huhuhu. But since aku dah jadi penganggur sepenuh masa, full of free time dan juga driver adik aku, guess I'm gonna update more entry from now on? Hmm. We'll see soon enough.

Uh'uh, yup my blog now have a new template! And that picture up there is my new header from now on! Latest photos of our family on 1st of Syawal this year, together with our grandma. \\(^_^)//

Ahem. This entry is gonna be long. Dah lama tak blogging, camni la jadik nyee.

Well, back to the topic we're having here. Penganggur, UNEMPLOYED. Actually, the most appropriate way of saying is that a FRESH GRADUATE (Soon). Hahaha! Yesss, it's finally that time which I've had waited soooo long before these 4 years of my degree. Yeah, I can feel ze EXCITEMENT peeps! Right, for the first month only. I reckon that it's not gonna be so much to be anticipated for, but I've never thought this could be so lame and full of boredom. Now, it's almost 2 months I'm at home, unemployed, eat, sleep, watch korean dramas on tv nonstop on channel ONETVASIA. Muntah hijau asyik layan drama korea je all day long. Aigooo -_-" It's fun though, channel tu best gila sebab mostly taken from SBS. Dengan drama latest diorang tayang sekarang, Lee Minho in The Great Doctor and Choi Minho in To The Beautiful You aka HanaKimi ver. Korea. Jjang!!! Daebak!!! Demam Minho laa aku. Oh btw, aku tengah layan gila drama yang dah lama on air diorang tayang, Bride of the Sun which now reaching it's 80th episode. Pengsan~

The Great Doctor/Faith

To The Beautiful You

Bride of the Sun

Anyway, I'm so eager to see the real world, real work, real people and real environment out there. I know, I know, it's not that much fun out there right? But I'm hoping that I can make it through and bring out the best in my upcoming job. Hopefully, aamiin :)

Champ! Last week aku turun KayEl~ I mean, KL, well obviously. Trololol. It's not funny, okayyy. Well, aku gi amek full transkrip bagai then last-last tertinggal kat rumah dear Syafiqah (haha) and settle kan urusan lapor diri ke JPA (which is a compulsory for scholar student, like me who's gonna ended up berkhidmat dengan kerajaan. adeh). So, I jumped here and there, tumpang rumah sahabat yang ada kat sana. Puncak Alam and then Ampang. Duh, two places only. Hee. Okay then, mesmerize your eyes with these photos~ Mesmerize la sangatttt. Hohoho.

Puncak Alam

Some were made by Syafiqah, others were from SACC Mall. Super yummylicious!!

Damansara. Sempat lagi melayan movie with my dad. Bhahaha!

Ampang, KL

Oh yeahh, I'm so into this Taylor's new hit song! We are never ever getting back together. Peace!

Alone.

I just wanna be alone, please keep him away from me. Aku dah block kot his no, for sure masuk voicemail each time dia call kan? Why does he need to call me again? Jangan sampai aku buat benda yang tak pernah aku buat macam maki dia. Sabar, sabar jugak tapi jangan ah lebih-lebih. I hope I can still be calm and keep sane. When will he give up already? Takpe lah, harap dia give up one day and move on. And I'm using mom's car, it's not like he knows I'm home or whatnot. What a psiko guy. God, keep that dangerous stalker guy away from me. Aamiin.

Umm talking 'bout stalker, well I can't quite say that I'm not one. Hahaha. But only in FB, not in real life stalker literally! Hmm. From single to in a relationship and go back to single. What an entertainment! Sorry. My bad. Just that it's funny and also heartbreaking to see how you can go back and forth with that. It really makes me wonder how you can managed to go through it again and again. Must be hurt. Yet it's still awkward to tegur you, and that's why I hesitates each time you're online but you'll never know anyway. Seriously, I have no idea what to say and if I start tegur you, there would be no ending of just emoticon all day long. No conversation. So I'm just gonna let you go with your own life and I'm gonna move on with mine. Oh, lupa you'd already moved on kan. There's no effin' way people can still be friends after breaking up, right? Even if they'd break up elok-elok. Heck yeahh, I like to be busy! *tiba-tiba*

Oh, I wonder too why this guy just can't get enough with just one girl. Kalau dah ada gf tu, buat cara ada. Haihh. Macam mana aku nak trust guys if things keep going this way for me. Humphh. My school's guyfriends rock though, ok je. Mohon aku maintain kuatkan diri, jauhkan diri dari maksiat, tak tinggal solat and be good to my parents selagi aku masih diberi peluang bernafas dan bertaubat. Alhamdulillah. Umm camne nak join usrah ek?  Hmm.

Anyhow, I wish that these guys find what they're looking for and I pray for their happiness. I hope I find mine too, even if not in this world insyaAllah in hereafter. Aamiin.

Assalamualaikum :)

Can I ask for a new clean heart? Can I ask You to guide me and bring me Home? I wanna be with You soon but without this dirty sick heart, it's disgusting.

Slipped Away

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad

I hope you can hear me, I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away,
Was the day I found it won't be the same

I didn't get around to kiss you, goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again, I know that I can't

I've had my wake up, won't you wake up
I keep asking why and I can't take it
It wasn't fake it, It happened you passed by

Now you're gone, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back

I miss you.